It will be the death of me
It still haunts me. To be treated in such a violent way is awful. I can still feel myself in pain even though its not there. I can still hear the voices in my head screaming and telling me i'm useless. All I ever wanted was to feel safe and nobody to touch me the way he did. All I ever wanted was someone to love me and hold me when i'm scared. I never thought my own father would hurt me, hit me, kick me in ways that could kill me. I will never forget the time he left me home alone and I finally took a stand for myself. I picked up the phone and dialed 9 1 1. Just hearing the ringing in my ear scared me. My hear pounding. Feeling like it's about to beat out of my chest. All I remember is a girls voice telling me everything is going to be okay. For once in my life I felt safe.
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